Disconnected

Sometimes I feel so disconnected with what I want for me and for my family.  I know what I want and what my priorities are, but it seems so many times my actions are not lining up with my priorities.  This puts me in a chaotic, out of control state.  To my loving husband, and children...I am sorry.  I have really struggled with this lately.  I am unsure if it is because of my pregnancy...or if it is re-evaluation time.  I have been so unmotivated and it has been difficult to "make it" through the day.  I am so proud of my men for standing beside me and for allowing me to be less than perfect.  I love you all so much and it is worth waiting on my knees for the Lord to change me, grow me, and enable me to be the woman, wife, and mother that is what God intended for all of us.